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I am here. I thought I would let you know I didn't delete myself too. Not too sure about things. Tempted to delete that last post, but I am thinking clearly enough to realize that everyone has read it already, and it won't do any good. Very, very vulnerable. I guess I have turned a corner and can't go back now. I just read someone else's thread (about passing out at Christmas after taking laxatives and diuretics) and how...

For me, writing does often bring up difficult emotions, including rage, but I find that the more I write about a feeling, the less it can harm me. As my T says, anger is a very important part of the recovery process. It's OKAY to feel anger--it means we're alive, don't want to be stuck, and are trying to move forward. It's what you do with and after the anger that matters most.

That's awesome that you work for an animal shelter :))))))

I did it, I ate my dinner. I would really like to have a cup of hot chocolate later, but of course am trying to talk myself out of that since I ate dinner. It is a never ending cycle. And for me it would be worse to cut my dinner into having to eat twice. My whole thing is I worry about how many times I eat a day and try and eat the least amount of times I can a day.

The others have said it all. The next time you might be headed to the morgue. god bless.

I looked at sites like the one you're talking about. I think I was on them for two reasons - I was obsessively counting calories and certain websites made it easier, and at times I was just generally obsessed with what other people were eating (in addition to food related websites I read tons and tons of reciepies, especially if they had pictures). I think the single most helpful thing was my meal plan. When I followed my mealplan I...

I noticed a lot of you said writing was a coping skill. For me, I get more angry and I get stuck when I try to write about it. They encouraged it a lot in treatment but "journals" (which me read aloud, mind you) wer mostly irrelevant or pure anger. I don't like being angry but it is my number one emotion. I haven't looked for a new T in sine residential treatment, so going through this process three years later...

Hey all! Hope everyone had a joyous Christmas and was able to put the ed thoughts out of your heads enough to enjoy the day! I'm getting kinda nervous... I have a T appt on Monday, and she's new to me. I had a great T in college, and have tried a few since but never found one I connected with... most of the ones in my area that say they will do eds are full.. but this woman is new to the area.. so we'll see! I will talk to her...

I didn't realise that was a stereotype! :P And I was stressing out about what I'd be having for lunch and dinner so long down the line. I think I definately need to consult my treatment team on what to do with my mp and see where things go from there. Although I'm not sure how long I can realistically receive treatment for...and I guess that is something I need to find out too when I meet my new team in the new year. The only...

{{woohoo}} you rock! Way to go on speaking with your husband and your weight - i hope you're proud too. Putting weight on takes so much effort, strength, emotion, pain. So don't under estimate that triumph. I'm ok. Had a hard day at work with a woman who is the nosiest, nastiest person i know who likes to make my life hell. She has finally found the raw spot - my weight. Her bullying is what led to this latest slip (but i have...